goals for the coming month:

• participate more in bitter_nakano  (sorry, guys, that i've been woefully absent after such an enthusiastic start :|)
• find a job. yup. -__-
• work on five college apps and somehow make myself out to be the most fucking fascinating human who's ever walked the earth
• screencap movies for my friend and my movie parodies
• work on the dreams of circe the enchantress
• watch all those movies i have, haha, and update "jude law as hamlet" prodigiously
• and on top of all that, remember somehow to breathe and smile even though it seems impossible.

i'm gonna be in for a ride, i suppose.

 

explaining the change in icon.

aka if you are unaware of the epicness that is the anime gintama, please head over to crunchyroll and start watching immediately. ^^

what follows will be a spewing of random thoughts that are coming to my head because it's nearly 3AM and my brain is never capable of making a cogent post at this hour:

• today being december 2nd, in about 13 days i will hear a decision that will change my life - aka, whether i got into northwestern or not. i guess it's a little silly to be banking all my chances on a single college, but if they reject me that means i will quite possibly have to write 5 applications in a matter of 16 days. which obviously, i'm hoping won't happen, so, um, wish me luck ^^
• recently i've spending a ridiculous amount of time on tumblr, which shamefully explains my absence from this blog. and i when i say ridiculous, i really do mean it. >_< but but but there are so many pretty pictures! and how i met your mother! and GLEE...!
• job-hunting is harder than it looks, kids. okay, so maybe i haven't been giving it my all ^^...but seriously if mt. sinai hospital doesn't accept my applications i might just tear my hair out because i just don't know where else to apply to. :/
• so i'm not even thinking about writing right now. anything that comes out of verbal form right now i'm pulling straight out of my ass. including this lovely bulleted list here.
• just finished watching scott pilgrim vs. the world, and i honestly do not understand why everyone disliked it as much as they did. maybe it's just because my inner geek squees for all the comic-book- and video-game-ness, but from a critical eye, i thought the plot was well-paced, the characters reasonably-developed, and the humor off-beat but nonetheless sharp and witty. the 3-D effects in no way took away from the movie, and i thought it was a bold undertaking to format it the way that they did. michael cera was typical-michael-cera-character but with a fresh and much-needed badass twist. ramona was nowhere near as annoying as everyone claims. and heck, this movie was just one big guilty pleasure for me, a 2-hour indulgence that left me feeling giddy and winded by all the action scenes. now what, i ask, is wrong with that?
• now watching spirited away for the 4th time... >_>

and that was a short update on how my life is proceeding, good night, ladies and gents. ^^

i'm as dangerous with my money as is, but when my mind wanders around 3AM in the morning, and i'm browsing etsy.com like a maniac...buying things i don't need and probably aren't healthy for my bank account is inevitable. i woke up this morning and, like remembering a horrible, drunken one-night stand, started regretting what i did last night. what was i thinking? i'm still not very sure. xD

ah well, what's done is done. at least i have more than enough motivation to get off my lazy ass and actually find a job now. >_>

well hopefully, if my sort-of-last-minute-scrounged-up college application skillz do me any good. :D i applied early to northwestern, so let's really, really hope that worked or for me, or i'll be a smelly hermit for the rest of my life. aka a NEET. lol. no offense to actual NEETs. :/

i don't know how long this affair will last, haha, but i'm hoping to get back into livejournal, casually dating, so to speak. :3 i've already returned to being a semi-activer tumblr-er (what) so i'm hoping the blogging bug catches on again. i really miss lj and my days of constant friends page stalking haha, if it could even be called that. oh, junior year of high school. what memories.

another thing: i'm also aiming to increase my writing productivity by producing a story once a week, original or fanfiction, and in some way or another lj will help kick my butt in those matters. and what better way to force myself to write something everyday  than having an active blog, y/n? so lj: procrastination no longer. MOTIVATION. xD

....yes, i really did get no sleep last night. >_>

title: courtesan of the dead
some really horrible, strange and ooc 6996. think hades/persephone but with too many shoujo manga elements. do not read if you can't stand extreme butchering of character in exchange for some afterlife romance. xD

( i'll follow you until you love me )

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..yup i don't like it either. :/ but i figured i might as well post it since it's the first fic i've written in ages. for some reason i like writing this damaged girl/ death god fake-romance stuff O__o

so i know i uselessly flapped my lips a while ago about how i was gonna revive my lj! and empty promises like that, but the truth of the matter is, i just can't update as often as i wish i could anymore. i'm terrible at commitments to begin with, and although i was determined to see my livejournal through, it looks like i'm going to have to (once again >_<) back out of it. things have become a little more complicated and busy, and i now have to concentrate on my life outside of the internet. (ha, as if i even had one in the internet to begin with. :P) i hope not to disappear completely, to still make a few interesting blog posts here and there, if i can remember, that is, but i'm sorry mostly to all the people i've friended on livejournal yet never really talked to, even though i would really love to get to know them. you guys are all really, really awesome people that have inspired me to write better and love it more, and again, i'm so deeply sorry i couldn't return the favor.

( click here to read some ramblings on why my current life requires an absence from lj. or just to read about my life in general. )

( and click here to read...well, some other stuff. )

have a nice day! :D

with one line gin managed to break my heart several times and induce complete shutdown of my respiratory system.

i already liked gin as much as i did, but then he had to go redeem himself?! oh gin...you heartbreaker :'D

(yay for new favorite canon pairing? 8D)