*sleep-deprived.
*seeking inspiration.
*seeking anything, actually.
*stats: 130 half-inches, fluctuates between 1648 - 1728 ounces in weight
*the worst asian at being azn ever.
*extremely busy, extremely short attention span and easily bored by everything.
*long to-read book list that will never disappear.

RIP <3
i'll miss her lots.

http://nymag.com/daily/fashion/2009/11/police_believe_daul_kim_commit.html#ixzz0XPkpejPW
http://iliketoforkmyself.blogspot.com/

in other news i go home tomorrow :D

...so today my friend and i discovered the true origin of caramelldansen. i didn't even know what the name of the song was, and just assumed it was a cute song people used to make chibi versions of their favorite characters do ridiculously cute dances...anyway. so we watched the actual video, and let me just say, it was QUITE SCARY.

proceed at your own risk O:



THIS CUTE YET AWFUL SONG IS NOW STUCK IN MY HEAD. SO IS THE DANCE. GOD HELP ME. D:

so i was vacuuming my floor when i had this BRILLIANT idea:

let's exchange pieces of writing for christmas.

okay. writing-nerd strikes again. however, think about it this way - i will only either be satiated with this, or something that costs ridiculous amounts of money, so you're better off going with this crazy deal.

so i guess the only rule is:
-you write me a poem, short story (100 to 5000 words), or flash fiction / drabble (50 to 100 words), and i'll write something for you, whatever i can think of in return. then we'll send it to each other on the jolly 25th of december. it'll be fun, trust me. and wouldn't you love to have something eternally composed in YOUR honor? *yeah yeah?*

feel free to comment if you're up for the challenge. if no one comments, well, then i'll be forced to awkwardly comment on random people's ljs, and everyone knows no good comes of that. O:

menial updates:
-a/e cross country race last sat, i PRed by 3 minutes yayayaya :D
-still no sadie date, still tons of boy problems
-speaking of boy problems, i am such a whore. meh. i still haven't given up on blondie, though the hope is slowing dying, and i've already set my sights on another man. WHEN WILL THIS END >__>
-exeter geek day tomorrow, which calls for lots of red and general geekage all around. I AM EXCITED :D
-regina spektor is boss.
-lady gaga's videos? so weird but OMG so mind-blowingly awesome in ways i can't describe
-someone told me yesterday, "but everybody loves you." i am shamed to look around campus, feel like a small person, and disagree completely.
-a/e and sadie this saturday!!
-my life is sadly devoid of gintama :/
-ROFL ROFL ROFL my lj is so dead / sucky / depressing at times
-thanksgiving break is full of work, confusion, and a lot of alone time
-should be studying for econ test.
-should be applying for college.
-should be doing lots of things.

wish me good luck.

it's technically november 2 and i still have -1667 words. HALP MEEEE.

in other news - college? sats? ifest? late potpourri assignment? i sincerely regret not doing any work last week, because i am now feeling the heavy brunt of it, and it sucks. D:

broke out the from under the cork tree and fever you can't sweat out again.

so i know you guys are sick and tired of reading this thing, but here's the guided, revised, for REAL this time:

( tell me i'm not crazy, and i'll love you forever. )

did i ever tell you my secret secret dreams of being a film actress? i'm convinced that my over-dramatism is perfect for the job, but it's a fucking long shot, and i fucking know it.

major stress abound. my life went from okay to horrible overnight. funny how that happens sometimes.

in the meanwhile, god, please let me get through school without digging my brains out with a spork, let me have motivation to do work, let me get into a decent college, and then let's see about the acting thing.

today went to bu with anjali, then hung out with will around cambridge. gold stars for me because i managed to find my way around boston by myself without getting lost. FUCK YEAH. :D (never mind the fact that i've been there at least five times already >___> but i'm convincing myself that i had other people to follow around previously)

went to the facebook movie shoot tonight. the most legit thing i've ever been to - i was looking at the screens of the camera shots, and was thinking, maybe this is what i could be doing one day. maybe one day, i can really get this far, and be the one on the other side of that camera. if god would grant me the chance to be a film actress, i...i don't know what i'd do. i would eternally be thankful, offer my soul up to Him, and perhaps even throw in some very delicious brownies.

also, let me just say - it still amazes me how much will made my day infinitely better. we did nothing but wander around cambridge and sit on a bench for a while, yet all my troubles seemed to fade away. (excuse the cliches, i've been talking in nothing but cliches all day.) after i left, riding back to campus on the train, and looking out the window at the passing scenery, i figured even if he didn't give a shit about me, i was still grateful that we're friends. all you have to do is be there, and i take take take.

apologize again for the shit writing but my brain's been kinda dead. the point is though: overall good day.

EDIT: taylor swift is such a guilty pleasure. O: i love her for being so. :D

i am in love with one of the most generic pairings ever.

( starburst )

a late naruto bday fic? i have no idea, except i haven't written narusasu recently, and brief foray back into the pairing reminded just how much i love it. and please excuse the fact that my writing sucks, it's been doing that a lot lately. :P